confession.

Checking my 2nd mailbox. Previously I'm using it for Uniten's Info, but I've changed it a week before. Nothing much to say, feel uncomfortable with that email address, something is going on a years ago. That email remind me for someone. Someone that I keep on respect. But, there is no point I'm doing such things, useless.

Inbox (64). OMG! Who's trying to intrude my peace of mind huh? Ohoo.. it is an email from registrar Uniten. So many ohh.. Serabut tgk byk2, not really important. Just looking for someone who is willing to fulfill the vacancy of Uniten's administration. Maybe..

Also an email from 'teratak kasih'. Every week. But there is no regret aku follow that blog. Some post is very interesting and some post is quite ridiculous.

I'm interested to open one of the email. Entitled 'Suicide'. Post to : Miss Nadia. Ohh! That's my name. She's really remember me. Haha.. Thanks a lot sis. The date she is posting that post is 1st December 2008. Dh lama aku x bukak email ni..

"Before u read dis, nk remind u something. I've been through before my dear, I know what u feel, and I know u will be ok soon. Perhaps.. Everyone loves u."

Have you had cold showers of pain
My friend, you've stood in my rain
Deathly feeling of loneliness
No need to feel shameless
I've been there before
Not wanting to feel any more
Your hearts been broken in half
Mind still living in the past
Cold dark thoughts of suicide
Why don't I do it tonight
Don't worry it will go away
Learn to love another day
Put it in the back of mind
Let it rest and you will find
Dark clouds begin to part
New love will mend the heart
Thoughts of suicide disappear
Self- esteem will reappear
One day you'll be able to say
My friend you've stood in my rain

Hahaha.. Tersenyum sendiri baca dis poem i think. Ntah.. Xtau... Akak tu bagi. =) If, aku bukan aku yg sekarang, for sure meraung nih! Haha.. Yes, I've been there before. And now I know.. The truth, the lies, the heart, the soul.. It's not mine. Haha. Forget it dude! Nothing's happen laa.. I'm Nadia. I love to be me. I love my life. I love my friends. I love everythings around me. And i'm gonna love people who loves me. If.. There is a miracle.. I want to change the past. How's great my life if i'm not knowing it, him, her, them. But, because of it i know and i understand the real meaning of life.